Chase’s birthday

Mama and I are not sure what to get Chase for his birthday. He is a very difficult person to buy for. One of the girls he “hangs out” with had him to ask Mama if she would get in trouble if she bought him a hermit crab. Mama was not thrilled. I think it could be a great gift. When I was younger a friend had a hermit crab as a pet. I asked one day to get it out of the cage and discovered that it had been dead for quite a while. We later figured out that a mouse had been eating the food he faithfully put out for his dead pet. Sounds like the perfect pet for Chase; that or a pet rock.


As we move into the house on Jennie, Mama has promised me an office but there is a caveat; all the kids must be gone so it can be set up in the second bedroom. I will eventually have to build our house in order to have a designated office space, either that or set up the herb shop.

Speaking of the herb shop idea, I am beginning to wonder if I really want that. I have spent a lot of time and money getting the background and education to be able to really consider it an option, yet I am doing nothing in my daily life to make it a reality. Sounds to me like a lack of desire - or an overwhelming fear. It is difficult to tell the difference since I am the problem.

I often compare it to Mama’s desire to learn sigh language. Maybe that is not a good analogy but in general it works for me. Mama has the ability and the desire but it has never been enough to overcome a debilitating fear. There has never been a need either. Need often drives us past our fears and allows us to accomplish things that desire alone was unable to produce. It is something I consider on a daily basis.

For Chase’s birthday he has asked me to provide him with a drivable vehicle. I did not delve too deeply into the request but I could easily offer him the Lincoln which is now tagged and titled properly. My assumption is that he would rather drive the Breeze but there are things he would like to be fixed before he would feel comfortable driving it. Victoria has driven it in its current condition for several years so I am not sure what embarrasses him most about it but it will be fun to find out. His driving the little van is pretty much out of the question for now since it is our only “good” vehicle.

Work is a whole lot more like work with the new boss we have. It is not that he is oppressive or overly difficult, he is just very driven. I get emails from him through the night so in return I send my responses before 6 a.m. every day. Since they are sent from my computer he knows that I am at work when I send them. He remarked about them last time we talked.

For those of you who are wondering, I have already taken care of Mama’s birthday present although I promised to help Chase and Victoria pay for what they have ordered for her. Once again, everyone cleans up but Daddy.