Since Mama was not feeling well and there were predictions
of severe storms we did not go to church last night. Mama is terrified of traveling
in the rain, much less a storm. The rains did come last night but not until
after midnight; which would technically make it today. Neither of us felt we
had made the right choice not to go to church. That will not happen again.
I am thinking about taking off tomorrow so I can have two
full days to work on the apartment. The biggest challenge is that I am out of
money. I still need several items to do final completions but those purchases
will have to wait until next payday. There is still plenty to do without the
final items in hand so I will study on it today and see what the best course of
action would be.
Grandpa is planning on cutting the hay on Saturday so it
will be ready to bail on Monday. The fields look a lot better this time than
when he first cut them several weeks ago but there still will not be many
bails. I am guessing there will be one hundred or so. Our initial expectation was
that the large meadow would produce between three hundred and fifty and four
hundred bales of hay when fully developed. If we exceed one hundred this
cutting I will be very pleased, but at least we are getting something for the
effort and seed we put in them.
There is an expectation that I will buy the AgGrand
fertilizer so we can spray it on the fields, but I will not be able to do that
for some time. For me, the apartment and shop need to come first. I am not sure
that is the way Grandpa sees it but that is the way I need to go for now. The fertilizer
is about the same price as a ticket for Mama to fly to Alaska – so you can see
the straight I am between.
I see no change in the balancing struggle for at least the
next three years. As we continue to develop the farm and the many building
programs that will require compete with the attention Mama and I want to give
to our children and grandchildren we are going to wrestle with the strain of
meeting expectation for both needs. Family will come first, but it will still
be a case by case decision what can wait or be given up to meet each immediate
need.
The sizable and money hungry projects on the farm will
eventually be done so there is a point in the near future when the decisions
will not be so conflicting, but that is not where we are at the moment.
I called my Mom and Dad last night. Mom is doing much
better. She is up and around but gets tired out pretty quickly. Dad says there
is a lot filling in of tissue still to come as she heals from the open heart
surgery. She says she feels much better but is definitely sore – all over. There
was a sense of joy in their voices as is talked to them. That is what I was
most thankful to hear again.
Our new bodies are on order and we will be occupying them
soon.
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